A Birthday Wish...

On this day 4 years ago, I didn’t even know you. I still don’t, really, but I certainly do love you. Little did I know that 4 years ago, my future son was born and his sweet, strong momma probably felt incredible joy, paralyzing fear and eventually, excruciating heartache when she was faced with the hardest decision. I, too feel that incredible joy, paralyzing fear and excruciating heartache. Joy for the gift of loving you, fear that something could keep me from ever meeting you, and heartache for the loss that you, your sister and your mother have endured.

I may not ever be able to share stories of your birth; how you kicked in my womb at the sound of my voice or how you did somersaults to the beat of music nearby. But I can tell you someday what a beautiful gift you are to this world and how blessed we are to call you “son”. I can tell you that your mother loved you more than life itself and made a decision that no mother should ever have to face. I can tell you that you have inspired in me a deep passion for working in Haiti to keep families together. I can tell you stories of how we prayed for you; how we longingly waited to know your name and see your face and hold your hand.

One day, all these things will be but a memory to be shared with you and your sister. But for now, they are our reality and I thank God for His plan and His timing. Know that we wish you the happiest of all Birthdays yet, my son and that one day soon, we can all celebrate your beautiful little life together.

We pray that you want for nothing…that you have food, shelter, a warm bed, hope, happiness and faith that YOU can move mountains.

Be brave, little one.

So much love on this, your 4^th Birthday.

-Your (hopeful) Future Mommy